Torture…

I tell myself,
This will also fade away,
Time is the remedy…

Never knowing,
I could feel,
So much loss,
All at once,
I thought I had prepared myself,
Knowing this was coming,

I told myself,
Don’t give in,
Never lose control,

But…

I did,
For once I let go,
In return losing everything…

I never believed,
I could feel this way,
I didn’t believe in love,
The connection of two souls…

It was as if,
We where destin,
To cross paths,
But never really knowing, one another,
Just passing in the distance,
Gliding our souls,
Against one another,
As if they where finger tips,
Sliding across one another’s outline,
Within the desert’s illusions..

Maybe I have made you out,
To be something you are not,
So that I cold feel,
To know what it feels,
Like to know love,
A pain I have never felt,
To know destitution…

With all the crimes,
That have clench themselves,
Upon me,
This is the most painful,

My stomach turns,
As if I have drunk,
Myself to oblivion,
But not a sip of wine,
Has touched my lips,
There is no stains upon them,
They are ghostly white…

It’s as if I have lost,
All taste in my mouth,
Only longing for your,
Stained lips against my skin,

But this fantasy has ended,
It was only a spark,
Moving faster than,
The speed of light…

I will always remember you,
The one that showed me,
That I could love,
No matter the pain,
It has bestowed upon,
My essence…

You where the one,
The Wolf that stole my heart…

~ by jbritt
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